Where Do I Begin?

It all started the day we found out that Jones was going to die.

Somewhere in the most vulnerable darkest part of me

a seed was planted in the loamy black soil.

I was pregnant, scared of the overwhelm of grief

and completely unprepared to lose my first 'baby'.

I still have a hard time with the missing of him.

In the ensuing weeks I cried and I processed delicately and I tucked away little bits of overwhelm in a place that felt big enough to house them.

Flash forward one and a half months to the birth of my amazing child:

body recovering, relationships all being rearranged,

careworn and clueless

I had so many pieces of confusion to process that I began secreting them away again

in that place whose walls were now full to bursting with pains and slights and fears.

I kept my house clean

I worked with joyful hands

I made dinners

drove my car

ached secretly

fell in love with a baby boy.

I did it all and then some;

I pushed and pushed and proved things to myself, things of great value.

I know now.

Orion is now nearly four months old and the dam inside that place has broken:

it is time to deal with the Untouched and Unloved.

I had so much to tell you, about my visitors and how much I love them, about my gratitude for this place in all its beauty and discomfort, but I am so tired; soul tired. There are dark circles under my heart and a five o'clock shadow on my toes.

This is my last collection to offer for a while.

I will have a giveaway here on this blog in a few days and then it will be a bit quiet until

I can sort through the dim and bring back a pearl.

RESERVED

This necklace is one of the most meaningful I've ever made: the wing is hammer-engraved and took a million calendar years to finish, but I have and I've never been more thrilled with an outcome.

It's huge.

It's outspread.

It's a wing to uplift, or to drop down sharply;

to dive into caverns or soar to the heavens and its message is this:

fear not.

It is a GUARDIAN.

YES.

Jacaranda seed pod necklace with the palest massive faceted chunk of amazonite.

For your heart, for your solar plexus.

RESERVED

Jacaranda seed pod earrings with amazonite beads an a sweet little high-domed piece of the stuff.

asymmetrical to the nth degree

These are the front

which fit together to form a pod

And these are the backs: beauty coming and going.

Please 

CONVO

me

if any of these pieces are yours.

With love,

Allisunny