Sunday, January 15, 2012

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My heart is so broken that my fingers can barely type the words:

our sweet Jones is at peace
and we begin our unique journey of mourning and celebrating
his beautiful, hilarious and willful life.

He was the only animal I've ever known
who solely belonged to us as we belonged to him.

When visitors came, be they family or friends he was always cordial (with the exception of peeing in one visitor's suitcase, good Lord I was so mortified)
but it was Anthony and I who were given the fullness of his heart and his magnificence.

When the house was empty of guests and the last car had pulled away
he would give us tons of headbutts and cuddle in close
as if to say, "Finally, I get you both to myself again."

Like so many gorgeous young things with huge charisma and passion
in massive supply,
he burned hard and fast
too briefly
for us to show him
the years of love we have to give.

When I think of our grief I feel very sorry for myself, for Anthony...
but when I think of his soul
I feel like the space around my heart is miles wide
and blue as his eyes...
as the sky.


xoxox,
A

32 comments:

Cat said...

big hugs being send your way

I honour the life that was

Love and Light

Sunny Rising Leather said...

Thank you so much, Cat; I feel them, I do.
xoxoxo

MJ said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Much love to you as you mourn and remember his beautiful life...
xo

liz r. said...

Oh Allison, I am tearful on your behalf. Condolences to you and Anthony.

SpiralStone said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Love and hugs to you. xx

Jaime/Bella-Bijou Jewellery said...

Thinking of you Allisunny - hope you can sense my love and hugs from Canada today. xo

SEVEN13JEWELRYDESIGN said...

So sorry for your loss, he was very beautiful!

dina said...

allison,
my tears are rolling down.....

so much love to you...............

xoxo

Puck's Mom said...

Oh Allison,

I wept when I read the news. I think Jones gave and received a lifetime's worth of love in the too short time he was in yours. Big hugs and soft kitty kisses are sent your way...

Susan

Sybil Ann said...

Much love and fellow feeling for your furry fellow. They own US.

XO

DalaHorse said...

I'm so sorry Allison....this post has brought tears to my eyes and heart....he was a treasure and will remain a sparkling miracle in your minds and hearts. Safe passage sweet Jones.

Anaya said...

Oh lady! I am so SO sorry ... sorry for your loss and sorry that your time with him was so short. I am glad that you had the Jones in your life and you in his, though - remember him well. gentle *HUGS* and *LOVE* for you and Anthony and Janey

Sunny Rising Leather said...

I cannot properly express my gratitude for your words and kindness... we are just a bit lost today without him... Janey is close by and sweet as a kiss; thank goodness for her and for the amazing strength of our little family...
I gather strength here, honestly.
Thank you.
xo

Mari Huertas said...

I am sorry, my love.

I hold you all gently in my thoughts. Dres does, too.

Sending you light across the many miles.

m.

InkyTonka said...

He was loved.

And so are you. Deepest condolences to you, Anthony and Janey.

Michelle

mairedodd said...

i can hear you telling orion 'this is sorrow, baby, the kind born of deepest love... this pain proves that we live fully by keeping open hearts.' with empathy my eyes are teary... your fur baby will always be special and remembered... big love, a...

Tasha Imajin said...

My heart is broken too. I'm so very sorry. I read this about an hour ago and just now feel composed enough to send my love. xoxox to you and Anthony!

Taddyporter said...

Sweet people,

I am so sad to hear of this news and my heart aches for you and Anthony as you journey this sorrow. I always loved that flicker of silly serious mischief that was behind those beautiful blues, peaceful rest at last little one.....so much love and prayer sent your way,

xoMichelle

Lorena, sometimes ... said...

i am so grateful i got to stroke his golden fur, and kiss his silken head, alight with those baby blues!

i was an honor he gave to me -- like the one you give . . .

of love,
kindness,
giving,
truth,
& of FRIENDSHIP!

i love you dear lady, and my arms are right here for you, whenever you need them

xoXO

Brandi said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss. There are tears here for your broken heart.

MrsLittleJeans said...

I am so sorry...and I praise your strength...I don't know what to say except that you will all be in my heartxx

Corinna said...

I am so sorry. xo

gallerydarrow said...

I am so sorry for your loss Allison.
Sending love and hugs, northward, Ro

Brooke said...

I'm so sorry

xo

Melissa Meman said...

I'm so sorry you had to say goodbye to your furry friend. Big Hugs!

bonddi said...

Goodbye Jones - I loved seeing your photos and reading about your antics. I will give my kitties an extra big scratch and a hug for you today. xoxo

Karin Bremer said...

It pulls sadly at my heartstrings to hear you lost your furry feline Jones. So sorry for your loss, but no doubt he brought you much love & tenderness that lingers...

Kelly said...

Oh the heart holds such large spaces for these beloved furry ones...my heart goes out far and wide to you and your family...
go gently

Nancy*McKay said...

as i still grieve the loss of my sweet boy, i continue to look to you for strength & insight. i have surprised myself of my inability to celebrate his love & life more than I miss it. i still find myself in tears anywhere & anytime in the course of my day...my head knows his spirit is with me & everywhere yet my heart feels tremendous loss & sadness. my heart feels selfish.

as you & Anthony grieve the loss of your sweet boy, know that i feel for you & send you my love...& know that i thank you for helping me get through mine as well.

Dave said...

Jones will be with you in every smile the you wonder where it came from...

Lynsey Phelps - VerreEncore said...

oh honey, i'm so sorry to read this news :(
i hope you're finding love and comfort in this time of sadness.

send you you warm, wishful thoughts xx

Theresa said...

I am sosososososo far behind on reading my blogs, so only just got to this. We lost our dog in September, so I can only imagine what you are going through. Big HUGS to you all!