I've carried with me the desire to make a very particular earring these last few weeks.
My heart has been very tender.
We like to fool ourselves into thinking that if we just keep our plates filled and make plans for next November
each moment will unfold as we've accounted for.
What we forget is that this framework through which we create a safety net doesn't really exist
the only thing that exists at all is this present moment
which happens over and over and over again
fresh and new
fresh and new and sometimes scary
always beyond our plans, beyond our control
We are groundless, with the next moment unfolding constantly
like a flower ever blooming
in and out of death
company and loneliness
ease and disease
Sometimes this feels very comforting
breath thrumming through your body and the boom of our hearts
and sometimes this is very overwhelming
because we want a guarantee
so that we can avoid pain
These are the things I've been mulling around as I've created and refined this little series
and completely human