Tuesday, July 12, 2011

You Never Did Like My Tenderness Much....

I know that you figured it would somehow be my undoing:

a sweet smile at a man on the street
trusting other women around my man
loving with all my heart no matter what the cost
following my dreams with caution and care
opening
silent contemplation of bigger things...

So you took great pains to initiate me into the challenges of the world
starting with us:

you cheated
lied
left
never fully giving over to love
because you had a wall around your heart
built of wild oats
and the complicated justice of youth...

When my life shed that relationship
I nearly closed every door, almost gave in to the attractive notion of a fortress:
it would sure save me money in tissues and cigarettes, now wouldn't it?

But

Instead

I stood tall and gentle
sternum to God
feet firmly planted in the good earth of California

Letting the very tenderness you so misunderstood become my finest attribute:

I've honed it
honored it
crafted a vessel out of it
with which to sail straight into darkness as easily as light
for both have immense gifts to hand me if I can just listen up and take care.

I know you've turned out to be a good man
firsthand: I am proud of you and I hold you and your family in my heart with great respect and honest affection
but

even more important than history and fortune,
the gift of knowing you has been the understanding that
water carves away rock

quietly
singing
a calm, measured molecular song
as its gentle hand minutely sweeps away that which cannot be moved:

My tender loving heart is the strongest thing I have
and in its chambers everything heals
and leaves its perfect mark.


I built these earrings for a woman who needs to see her softness
as a warrior's strength.

RESERVE PENDING

Delicate Shields
Hammer formed
Pierced
Riveted
Maidenhair Fern Impressions
Tough like a memory
and tender as an open heart.

Namaste,
Allison

9 comments:

Nialah said...

Amazing sentiments and amazing earrings

Sending you so much love.

xoxoxoxoxo

M

Jaime/Bella-Bijou Jewellery said...

Allison that was so very touching - words that seemed all to familiar to me, yet I doubt I ever could have said them so perfectly beautiful.
xo
Jaime

MrsLittleJeans said...

Such openness, such strength, you are just that. The earrings are very powerful looking! xoxo

UmberDove said...

Oh girl...


You are such a tender hearted warrior.

mme. bookling said...

Jesus Christ. You are 2 for 2 for deeply relevant posts. Unnerving and deeply satisfying at the same time.

I still hear your laughter in the chamber of my heart.

resolute twig said...

These are lovely allison, and I LOVE your tenderness. Your strength is fantastic.

The fertility post/thoughts/ring touched me too... Sending love and good vibes.
xo

boniusia said...

I'm very impressed with all the blog and work... lovely jewelry... earrings beautiful ... I'm delighted ...

Cat said...

Your wonders never cease. Mas Love,
cat

radcow said...

the way you write blows just blows me away.Thank you Allison <3