Tuesday, February 23, 2010

This is a Photo....

Of a very happy girl: 
all that weight, all that fear of being seen has been cut off by a pixie with a lovely heart and a tattoo that says, "Serendipity" on her arm.

There are things I haven't told you in the last few days, things I've been worried to say out loud lest I fail in my aim:

I am doing a thirty day yoga challenge, for myself by myself under no one else's scrutiny.
One 1.5 hour class per day at Moldanado's Renew in Petaluma....
Today is day 5.
Days 1-3 felt kind of impossible because I have a fear of beginning things.

I was deeply afraid to start silversmithing
leatherwork
loving a good man
any year of school I ever went through, despite having great friends and nothing scary in my path....

So here I am, uncovered and striving towards something meaningful, and it inspired the desire to go much shorter than I anticipated....

All of those downward facing dogs and warrior 2s have given me this courage I forgot I had to wear something pretty from inside my closet
and cut off the curtain from behind which I viewed the world.

I am nervous and happy and giddy in a way that implies too much chocolate, but I know it's coming from something far deeper than
food
or even scissors....

There will be resistance
days where I wish for nothing other than to avoid the very mat where these miracles are happening
And I will ride them out as best I can.

Wish me luck!!!!

xoxoxoxox,
Allison

23 comments:

Jaime said...

Oh I thought I was the only one! Perhaps this will push me to get out there and try it myself :-)

mme. bookling said...

My ars needs a yoga challenge. In a bad way. Maybe that what March will be...

zarawhara said...

You are stunning as always...inside and out! I myself have been on the same kind of inward pilgrimage except I prefer the pilates (I have a much farther way to go)but it's been a rewarding 2 months of Pilates, and hiking, and bicycling. I feel better then I have in...forever and it just keeps getting better and better! We miss you terribly and I can't wait till our paths cross again! much love, keep up the good work, and know we're wishing you health and happiness,...always!
love,
Zara

The Noisy Plume: said...

Love your shaggy,
baby.
XO

resolute twig said...

i love your haircut and I love this post. i love hearing about your bravery and your success :)

Brooke Arin said...

You are gorgeous. :)


Best, best, best of luck with your yoga practice. I hope you get out of it exactly what you need.

kerin rose said...

well gosh, Allison.... rockstar!
ox k

Heather Fawn said...

I love the hair!!! I also hope you get exactly what you need out of your Yoga challange. I wish I could just go for it and do things like that. For the past couple of months I've been having this burden on my brain and waistline saying, "Lose Some Weight!!!!" The thing is, a bag of potato chips is easier to indulge than trying to lose the weight. See, I'm terrible!!! Send some of your strength over here wonder woman!!!

dailycoyote said...

I Love Warrior 2!

And every word from you!

We are so very lucky to have you as part of our realities, part of our rhythms.... we are so lucky to have YOU.

~ S.

RosyRevolver said...

Always so amazed by you and your translucence. The hair, the smile, the words are all beautiful.

Wishing you all the best and all the joy you can hold! Still have to get your lil package out to you!!! Ack!

xoxoxo

::mari:: said...

You look gorgeous. I think the cut is very 'you' and very fresh. It's a shock to cut off your hair -- it feels like an extension of you -- but I think that in this case, you've merely lightened yourself. And you are a light being. It suits you. :)

I hear you on trying new things. I'm struggling with the designs on two sites right now, sites of my own making, that I desperately want to share and see grow, but I'm so afraid they will fall flat, or be viewed badly ... it's hard to put myself into the world. But I'm still going to give it a go.

On yoga ... I've been doing Qi Gong, and it's wonderful. I feel much more centered on days I do it than on the days I don't. It helps me focus on my breathing, my body's singular and joint movements, my mind's path. I highly recommend it.

Love to you & yours!

Dave said...

kudos kid

radcow said...

i love it! must feel wonderful to have all that weight off! xo

Taddyporter said...

Ahhhhhhh unbearable lightness of being embodied in a luscious new 'do. so so so lovelyyy. oh! and the inner radiance that comes from a yoga immersion is amazingwowow! just in time for spring cleaning too!

Flying a handful of love straight to you from me. It is tucked in safely under the wing of a shiny black crow who needed a bit of exercise....he was happy to oblige.

Alice Istanbul said...

Congratulations on starting such a meaningful new challenge. And love your new haircut :)

debdigi said...

I LOVE your words, I LOVE your art!
I'm "between jobs" right now, but as soon as I am gainfully employed once again, my first treat to myself is going to be a pair of your lovely earrings!

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Michaela Dawn said...

Oh-la-la,

I sense a new wordrobe and lighter step coming on:)

All my support, you are beautiul at any rate, every step you take... Enjoy the challange of it all, and it shall be a discipline you will always prefer to work into your day... I prefer a 3 mile run and the Insanity workout,

http://www.beachbody.com/product/fitness_programs/insanity.do?gclid=CMi78aiii6ACFQtx5QodUUzkgA&code=GOOGLE_SEMB_INSANITY&ef_id=1908:3:s_131f1fe613fd702f58228ece987df21e_4236179323:S4VCtUNIYWUAADwosNUAAARA:20100224151605



Holy Heck, it gets all my negitive energy out in such a fiery busting way...

Love and light to you,
M

Lasso the Moon said...

I've never been able to pinpoint it, but I think I have the same fear. Wow, good for you.

liz r. said...

Your hair looks wonderful! And the yoga challenge sounds wonderful. You seem to be in a really lovely place right now.

Nancy*McKay said...

ah ha...you've been working on your chakra #3...energy...desire...power...intention...


perhaps a little bija is in store...for you...

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XOXO!

Vita said...

LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF LUCK TO YOU ALLISON!!! I know you can do it!!!!
xoxoxox

kat said...

It isn't doing things we are unafraid of that makes us courageous, but doing things despite our fears and annoyances. You are clearly a courageous woman!