Thursday, February 25, 2010

Viva La Resistance!!!

Oh, yes.... it is Viva-ing quite nicely, thank you!

It began in yoga class last night, day 6.... the creeping tantrum of the Inner Child, asking questions that were rich with whine:

"Why do I HAVETA do this???"

"Is this punishment?"

"My back hurts, I gotta pee, are we THERE yet?????"

I came out of class to a few problems via email.
I woke up this morning and tested out my new contacts only to find one eye woefully under-prescription.

I pouted.

Over MINUTIAE.

These things are all really not important in the whole grand scheme of life:

but what is?

That the resistance is finally on the table:
 that I get to digest and compassionately encounter the very parts of my psyche that wish not to push past anything that doesn't 
feel good, that seek out any possible road around discomfort.

Quite frankly, I am looking forward to the challenge - even though I have a heart full of love 
and a mind bent on making things beautiful
I am strong, resilient and completely prepared to kick ass when the need arises:

right now it just happens to be my own.

I will overcome my own walls: I will go take class tonight.

Day 7.
Through the fear go I - no shortcuts!!!!

16 comments:

Amy Nicole/RubyMtnBeads said...

You wouldn't by any chance be doing the Bikram yoga 30 day challenge would you? Friends of mine just did it. They were crazy committed. If they missed a day, they would take two classes in one day. Whew. You can do it!!!!

Sunny Rising Leather said...

Amy,
It's not bikram per se: it's heated Vinyasa Yoga, lots of flow, lots of movement:
from my understanding Bikram is even more challenging because you are holding the same poses every day: there is a bit of change in these classes every day.
Thank you so so so much for the encouragement :)
xoxoxox,
A

Kala said...

I love you! *HUGS* and *KISSES* kick that whiney voice's ass!

Corinna said...

Way to go! You can do it!!

P.S. Your hair looks lovely!

xo

Sunny Rising Leather said...

Annie, my love: I will use seeing you in May as motivation!! :)

Corinna: Thank you, my lovely Canadienne!!! :)

kerin rose said...

just think, you get the gift of a goooood looong savasana at the ennnnnnnd!....


oxk

Sunny Rising Leather said...

Kerin,

Laughing out loud at the relief that I get even from hearing the WORD itself :) You are a gem :)

mme. bookling said...

sassy and inspiring.

just the things i like in a gal.

Heather Fawn said...

Allison, your hair is soooooo cute, I love it!!! I admire what you are doing and you will come out on top, I am sure of this :)

Susie said...

you are AMAZING! :)

Kristin said...

You can do it lady! I say this knowing full well I couldn't. Ah ha ha. Love the mug!

RosyRevolver said...

A most inspiring soul, you are Ms. Sunny.

And ass-kickery at its best, I might add.

sending love your way!

Nancy*McKay said...

minutiae...IMPORTANT?...maybe not...ANNOYING?...hell yeah...


what's that current saying...Be calm & carry on?!

MrsLittleJeans said...

I am rooting for you, you know?

xx

Michelle - Revelate said...

Good to know you're human Sunny-girl.

You can do it.

Blessings.

UmberDove said...

It takes a fair amount of courage to begin something and look that resistance straight in the eye, but far more to come out on the other side and keep walking.

I do believe in you.


get your warrior on!