Wednesday, October 8, 2008
When My Heart Feels Weary
I turn to the softest place I know. And rest there until I can recharge.
I feel vulnerable today...
To feelings that somewhere out there someone misunderstands my designs.
And thinks me dishonest in my creative inspiration.
Vulnerable because I also realized (as I got my marriage license with my Dearest) there are people I love passionately who will not be able to know I am getting married. My dearly departed relatives and aged friends who have passed before they even knew I had found this kind of love.
I hope they can see - I hope they don't see me cry for them, but instead show up on my wedding day and send me signs of bird feathers and leaves of a certain kind.
They all know their symbols, and I deeply wish for them at 3:30 P.M. sharp, October 18th to be ready with the north winds and the foothill flora nearby. I pray for a symphony of meaningful path-crossing.
For now I will retreat to the studio and make things, praying that their origins are understood.